Things I didn’t know | First 45 days of Motherhood

46 days back, I didn’t know I would wake up with an uncontrollable urge to pee and a baby, who was excited to come in 3 week early!

I didn’t know my water had already broken. And I clearly didn’t know it looked brownish/ light red in color.

This got me (and everyone else around) excited, anticipating that my little one was ready to pop any moment.

I didn’t know the contractions would get worse with every passing hour. I didn’t know I had to push only when the contractions occurred. Trying to push anything out of your body in between contractions would be futile.

I didn’t know, the only words I would hear, were going to, “Push, Shrishti Push”!

I didn’t know my labour would last 23 hours, before I would hold a soft, tiny, vernix covered human! I didn’t know she would be beautiful beyond all my imaginative powers put together! She would have the world’s most beautiful eyes and softest fingers.

I didn’t know you would look so much like your dad.

I didn’t know new mothers looked like wounded animals post delivery. Anxiety, fear, frustration and discomfort were all I felt.

I didn’t know breastfeeding was going to be so dam painful. Cracked and sore nipples were just the beginning. I didn’t know how beautiful and magical my body was.

But now I do. Now I know the potential my flawed little body carries. It nurtured and supported a perfectly imperfect human for 8.5 months. It was strong enough to deliver the normal way - And continues to be stronger than ever in making my little one adjust to this new world.

There were 100 things i didn’t know back then, and there are a 1000 things I still don’t know. But you know what? I get to raise a human – for whom, I am the world. And that makes this journey perfect.